This year was my first Christmas with my mom in long time. I was eleven years old the last time my mom and I spent Christmas together. We sat solemnly that Christmas morning, as the adults looked on with empty bored gazes, probably counting down the days until the obligation... [view entry]

We had our first dreary weather today. We left the house at 9:00AM this morning armed with our anti nausea medications and sombre expressions. Our appointment was 9:30AM, “The Agency” as they like to refer to themselves is less than 15mins away so we were early (Isn’t it ironic that... [view entry]

We sailed through the first few days after Chemotherapy easily. We went shopping the first evening; my mom insisted we go shopping or somewhere. She was bouncing off the walls – I didn’t think delirium was a side effect of chemo She walked fast, talked faster and would randomly burst... [view entry]

I recently found a dear old friend of mine on Facebook. One of those friends you are certain you’ll never see again. This got me thinking about old friends I’d loved to find again. I’d love to find my childhood friend Lovelace, just to see the kind of woman she... [view entry]

For a little while I felt I’d been to long gone to come back. Then I realized that I always come back, besides I’ve been gone far longer before. I’m going to blame my absence on summer and the persuit of that ever elusive “thing” that sadly still remains just... [view entry]

My mom has been officially re-diagnosed with Breast Cancer. It’s Stage II this time; startling, because this time last year she was lump-free. I wrote about my mom’s first diagnosis back in 2004, it was a different journey then. After a lumpectomy and all else, we live to fight another... [view entry]

This year was my first Christmas with my mom in long time. I was eleven years old the last time my mom and I spent Christmas together. We sat solemnly that Christmas morning, as the adults looked on with empty bored gazes, probably counting down the days until the obligation... [view entry]

One of the many wonderful side effects of (the chemotherapy drug) Doxorubicin is mouth sores. My mom has been lucky so far, we’re in Cycle 1 Day 3 and so far side effects have been minimal. Of course her hair is totally gone, everyone says her bald head and round... [view entry]

I’m sitting there twirling my thumbs, a little uncomfortable – I look around the office. I paste on a smile as she takes another sip from her moomin mug. The silence has stretched on for a bit now – it’s almost painful, I picture walking out, being free. She looks... [view entry]

I recently found a dear old friend of mine on Facebook. One of those friends you are certain you’ll never see again. This got me thinking about old friends I’d loved to find again. I’d love to find my childhood friend Lovelace, just to see the kind of woman she... [view entry]